Me

Yay! I rule the Universe! Hahha that's not true but I love saying it. :)

I'm listening to the song Pjanoo (thanks, Aneevie!) by Eric Prydz now. It's cool. It's getting me even more excited!! And I don't even know what I'm really excited about! I guess I'm just looking forward to my life! I just wrote an e-mail to a friend and told him about my plans with my two close friends to visit India next summer and just imagining, oh gosh, it got me so excited! My heart started pumping! Haha. And then I said that if plans don't push through, I wanna go to Egypt and Israel. I was imagining floating on the Dead Sea, unsinkable, and that was wowww. Hahaha.

And I saw a picture of the Shiva statue in an ashram in Rishikesh, it got me even more excited! I love this world! Well, not always, but at this moment, I do! There is so much to explore, so much to see, so much to love, so much to hate,.. so many people to meet! And I am hungry for all of it! I wanna see the Shiva status, I wanna see all the temples dedicated to all the gods, I wanna see the place Jesus was supposedly crucified in, I wanna see where he grew up.. I wanna see the Nile River and Mt. Sinai! Wouldn't mind exploring the area Buddha was around either! Sometimes I get confused and dunno what to think about spiritual stuff, or even to believe in it at all, but I decided to just love everything! All of it can be appreciated, all of it is amazing.

I was feeling lost a few days ago.. I feel that way from time to time. I lose my path, forget my direction, and then I gain it back again. :) So I just gained it back.

I am here in this world, living, and privileged. It sucks that others are a lot less fortunate than me and nothing makes any sense in the big picture actually (to me, at least), but WHATEVER! I love what I love, I hate what I hate. I give my life its own purpose, I live for the sake of living.. and I am gonna make the most of it! It doesn't have to have a point, it doesn't have to make sense in the big picture.. because it has a point to me..! There is something eternal in me, in everyone. Even if there is no such thing as afterlife.. well I believe that all of us have something we contribute to the Universe.. some sort of depth or spirituality or force. So after hundreds or even thousands of years, when the earth might already be destroyed, or when my existence thousands of years before that will not be known, it won't matter. The essence of me will have already integrated with the earth, with the Universe. And if that ends or gets destroyed too,.. well I contributed, in a very very minute way, to that end. :)